The Strength of Surrender

There’s always light, but sometimes you have to surrender yourself to it.

Im sure lots of my readers will identify with what I’m about to say. Recently life’s been like a giant rollercoaster of stress, anxiety & people piling on more. My partner must be the unluckiest guy in the world, wherever there’s a problem it’ll find him, and in life we carry each other but it’s worn me down. All this pressure has taken its toll on my physical & mental health and I’d reached a point of disconnection from myself & Spirituality.  Spirituality is a huge part of my life as a Buddhist and so is meditation but something was lost, I was lost.  It was 2 nights ago, in tears I rang a very close and wise friend who gave me the best advice I’ve ever had.

Tonight she said, go into your prayer room – make up a bed on the floor and sleep there, amongst the Buddha statues, pictures of HH The Dalai Lama & your teacher, and give yourself up to them. Don’t ask them for help, this isn’t their mess to clean up. Just give yourself up to their power.

Even with a strong faith, and the greatest respect for my lovely friend, my mind was still racing at 100mph. The likelihood of me getting any sleep whatsoever at this

point seemed pretty slim but what the heck.  So with a couple of quilts on the floor, comfy pillows & dimmed lights, I lay down at the feet of the huge Buddha statue and slept like a baby.  Before drifting off, I visualized myself in the embrace of my teachers, surrounded by traditional white Tibetan scarves.  The next morning I woke to a shift in the weather. The sun was shining in through the window and things seemed visibly brighter somehow. Something inside me had also shifted & although the pressures of life were still there, I knew in that few hours I’d taken my life back and reconnected spiritually.  I’ve really no explanation as to what happened that night as I slept, there’s no miracle solution I can come up with or proof of a divine intervention but something had changed. Maybe it’s about being in the right place at just the right time.



1 thought on “The Strength of Surrender

  1. Emaho
    What a wonderful friend to give such great advice. This is something we also do in my tradition. Sleeping in the Gompa with your head at the Buddha’s feet is something special. Many people say they had crazy dreams during the night. It’s interesting. I hope your doing better and the path to change complete wellness is underway.



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